I had a revelation. Circumstances had confirmed it. I was out of work.

I had been forced to dive.

Nothing had prepared me for this ocean.

I soon started choking from gulps of water… the water of bills, the water of losing control, the water of fear.

I tried to reach out to friends, but it was obvious – they had not been in this ocean.
The life jackets they handed me were way below capacity.

The financial gurus told you, “Don’t get into debt”. You will find yourself in debt.

The motivational speaker told you, “Don’t sit there do something.” Nothing you do will work.
The well-meaning preacher will tell you “What do you have in your hands? Use your gifts.” You simply don’t have inner motivation.

When I attempted to learn how to swim, my instructor told me, “It’s easier to float than to drown.” Floating means you let loose and allow the waters to carry you.

In that season, the song Ocean by Hillsong made perfect sense.

“You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep my faith will stand
And I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine”
I was learning a new level of surrender.

When bills were piling up, I didn’t quite have a solution, and no one could understand what I was going through.

The truth is, I had no answers.

I just knew I had to tide this wave.

And many times, I closed my eyes in fear as I watched the movie of life play out.

Friends, when the anxious moments come, your answer is in Stillness.

It’s okay to do nothing.
It’s okay not to have answers.
It’s okay to surrender.

And yes, it’s okay to wait on God.

Psalms 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God.